Rest in Peace Big Kitty, a Good Cat But An Even Better Friend!

My cat, Big Kitty, died last night @ 3:23 am. After a long fight she finally decide that she had enough and that it was time for a long rest. I miss her. I had to fall asleep for the first time in 10 years without her. She cuddled with me and kept my legs warm. Mind you, she would bite my ankles if I squirmed too much but that was part of her gruff charm. Last night, I watched her die and even though in the end she probably wasn't all there I was glad that I was. I wish I could have put her to sleep because she was in a little pain in the end but I was selfish and I wanted every little moment I could have. She was on the edge but she hung in there due to the fact that she had a strong will but yesterday she stopped eating and then she died fairly quickly. The weather matches my mood. The temperatures dipped below freezing last night and today, I drove around with icicles on my car. I gave my father a ride and then ripped him a new asshole when he dumped his marital problems on me. I just lost a loved one and I didn't feel like putting up with anyone's problems but my own, right now. I just miss her so much and it hurts. Tomorrow my pain will hurt less and even less the day after that but it will take a long time. I need some time for that raw spot in my heart to heal.

The Rainbow Bridge Poem makes me cry every damn time.